Today I must be gentle with myself, I will love myself. It is the day after Hallows Ritual, an experience that leaves me open and energetically vulnerable as I try to stumble my way back from the Veil between the worlds into my everyday life, trying to find a job and meaningful work and trying to keep my sanity as I stumble across time and space and lifetimes. I love ritual. It is honestly one of my favorite things about being a Witch. However, last night unexpected things happened. I got hooked into the energy of the circle, and so when the circle was cut open it seemed to slice right through me. Which made it difficult for me to return into the land of the living now. After ritual, after eating just a little bit and drinking just a little bit and just sitting at the feet of others to rest, I came home and proceeded to additional Magick by working with a dear friend to release some energy by burying things and offering food to the spirits and then being really cold and crawling into my bed sometime during the time change, late nonetheless.
The cat got me up about three hours later, near 7.30, for breakfast. Apparently cats do not understand the end of Daylights Savings Time, nor the joy it brings with an extra hour of "sleep" (if you're lucky enough to be sleeping then). I went back to bed, but got up two hours later to finally let the cats outside since I won't be doing much traveling today. It is sunny and cold, one of those days where you know it must be ten degrees colder than it looks just because it looks too perfect not to be frigid outside. It is October, you know. Almost November.
And because it is cold, and because last night was Hallows Ritual, and because my housemate comes home today from a weekend away, I am mostly going to stay home and be quiet: wash dishes, read, write, maybe even knit a bit. It's almost lunchtime and I haven't even eaten breakfast yet. I think I should shower first. I wanted to shower last night, but not at 4 in the morning. My head is swirling, my hair curling around my ears and against my eyes. Goddess keep me safe as I travel this day in the valley between the worlds.
Happy New Year! Blessed Be!